I am an engineer. I live for the scientific method, designing experiments, manipulating variables, testing responses. I don't settle for just asking the questions. I go out into the world and find the answers. I am a scientist. That's the kind of nerdy stuff that gets me going. While that kind of thinking has probably driven me to be pretty successful in the academic realm, I think it has also doomed me to make so many stupid decisions. A stimulus presents itself. Past experiences have pretty much shown me that nothing good could possibly come out of it. But what do I do? I have to do whatever it is anyway because I'm dying of curiosity about what will ACTUALLY happen. Can I manipulate the situation enough to get a different result? That is the kind of thinking has unfortunately been the catalyst to a lot of unnecessary wounds to my heart/spirit.